DISCLOSURE

With all the requested paperwork finally gathered and delivered to the bank, we began another week knowing the next period of time will be crucial to the process of owning the house. On Monday, we were asked to stop by the bank to sign DISCLOSURE papers. I had no idea what that meant, but after a long day at work we drove to the bank to sign a paper...or so we thought. 

After almost 2 hours of discussion and document searching with the loan officer, it was time to sign the paper...or papers. Keith and I signed perhaps 20 papers. With each one, the loan officer explained the important aspects of the loan we were hoping to receive. It was a bit overwhelming to discuss all the fees and regulations we were agreeing to. It felt as though our entire lives were being opened and laid bare. And after all the papers were signed, we were told we still needed to supply the bank with about 7 more documents. We promised to deliver them in the next day or so.

DISCLOSURE. What is disclosure? What is the significance of it in my personal life? I checked its definition..."the act or process of revealing or uncovering; something uncovered; a revelation". I gasped in amazement. This is exactly what I perceive God doing in my life right now. He is uncovering and revealing who I am at a new level. I am learning that certain things inside of me have been set aside or pushed under the surface. I sat with a spiritual director the other day and heard myself saying to her that it feels like I want to re-introduce myself to my friends. It has been an invigorating time. God is giving me revelations about myself and they are linked to revelations of who He is. As he reveals Himself and His character to me, I discover more about me. This is an amazing partnership! I want to reflect Him; me in Him and Him in me.

Jesus said, "Remain in me, and I will remain in you. No branch can bear fruit by itself; it must remain in the vine...If a man remains in me and I in him, he will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing." John 15

 I would like to note that this bathroom 
does NOT reflect who I am...but it will someday.

Our last action step in that meeting with the loan officer was to write a check. Of course! We had to pay a fee to have an appraiser discern whether or not the house, and the renovations we hope to complete, are in fact worth the amount of money the bank is going to loan us.

So now we wait. And we pray. Might this be the final step to complete before we have settlement on the sale of the house? The loan officer told us that everything is out of our hands at this point. We have no control (nor does he) of what the appraiser will do or say. We are praying that God would direct this; that this house project would receive favor in the eyes of the appraiser. We are placing our future plans and dreams into the hands of God. May His will be done on earth, even as it is already done in heaven.

How about you? The disclosure process with God is exciting and scary at the same time. Trust Him. He wants to reveal himself to you. You will learn who He created you to be. You will learn how to reflect who He is when you learn who you are in Him.